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Name: Bo
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: New York City
Birthday: 4/17/1976
Gender: Male
Interests: Movies and Fine Dining...all about good food; volleyball; i like reading good Christian books; theological discussions.
Expertise: i'm working on my cooking...i'm pretty good at being corny; reasoning and arguing (not sure if it's an expertise versus just being stubborn)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message meEmail: email me
Member Since:
4/6/2004
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| It's been forever since I've been on Xanga. Ever since the explosion of Facebook, I haven't had a need to go on Xanga. I imagine it to be the same for most everyone else and I think that's probably why I'm here tonite. As I look at my last entry, it's been at least 2 years since I've blogged on here and it was before I came to Indy. Two years have passed by and as I look at my last entry, in retrospect, the better title is really The Dreaming Begins.
Since I've left NYC, I've been learning to dream. I was in a regatta this weekend. No, not just to watch a regatta but actually to row in one...with a team. Something that was just a dream since I was young that has now become a reality. During the break between races, there was a joy about living a dream. Yet, I knew that I also felt a bit scared; scared of my drive to pursue something that I want. At the beginning of the summer, I committed to learn to row and took rowing lessons. I didn't just want to learn to row, but I wanted to row competitively. I wanted to be good enough to be able to row with a team by the time that the spring rolled around. It came sooner than spring. I had an awesome instructor who made it possible for me to get to be a part of the team this fall. I've been in two races so far prior to this weekend making this my third but the first big one. Got my first medals - bronze in the 4s and silver on the 8s. The best part was the comaraderie afterwards; eating at a Mexican restaurant in Dayton, OH and feeling like I belong. It's been awhile that I've had community; the irony is that it's not even in context of Christian community which in the long past has been my community.
This may all seem just rambling but I can't fall asleep. It's 2 am with my alarm set to go off in less than 4 hours but I've been unable to fall asleep in my bed. Just feeling the need to blog...and since I haven't been on Xanga since FB, I know that most people probably don't check their Xanga anymore and I can just blog into the abyss. I guess I could journal but I'm a faster typer than I can write and my mind is just wanting to have a catharsis faster than I can write.
Something that I have been realizing lately is that there is so much youth in me; no, not the manic energy that I have that seems to need less sleep, but the child that was left behind because I had to grow up too soon without ever having had the chance to be a kid. I think that's the part of me that never got to dream, to try things and see where it goes from there. I can't believe that the channel I actually watch the most is the Disney Channel and surprisingly enough, there are a lot of lessons about life that I am learning from the youth of today...through the teeny bopper shows that really address current life issues that aren't just prevalent in today's youth but in the youth inside me. They have been God's window to the hidden parts of my soul that I can't seem to travel to on my own. In the midst of High School Musical or Degrassi High, I'm finding myself.
But it's not just in Disney movies, but in movies unexpected in general. Who would think that a movie like Ghosts of Girfriends Past would pierce certain parts of my being; or the Soloist.
In the stillness and the quietness, when I pause, I can feel the beating of my heart and the yearning to love and be loved. I realize now that it's not about just finding a wife to marry and to have kids; but to love and be loved. My soul longs for this...to be found in my Maker who knew that Adam nevertheless needed an Eve. I fell in love once; heck I still think that I love her....no I do still love her. And even though I don't hope for her anymore because I promised I wouldn't, it's funny how every time she comes up, my really close friends could still see the joy of the thought of her. If anything, I'm grateful that I know what it feels like when I know...when my heart and my mind just know. I'll have to trust my heart and wait until my heart beats the same for someone, where it's evident when someone looks at me when sometimes I don't even see it.
Be still my heart. Journey on. Waiting and hoping. Pursuing...pursuing me...to become more and more of me and not who I think or others think I should be...to find my Creator at the core of it all and know that I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Rest my eyes now I shall as they start to wander up my eyelids.
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Goal! - The Dream Begins
By Kuno Becker, Alessandro Nivola, Anna Friel, Stephen Dillane, Kieran O'Brien, Gary Lewis (III), Sean Pertwee, Marcel Iures, Tony Plana, Miriam Colon, Kate Tomlinson, Emma Field-Rayner, Zachary Johnson, Frances Barber, Kevin Knapman, Alfredo Rodr?guez (VII), David Beckham, Jorge Cervera, Brian Johnson (XIV), Cassandra Bell
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Check this out: http://www.stvincent.org/education/meded/imfm/default.htm
Crazy...it's all happening so fast...it's an exciting future, fo sure!!! but it's making it difficult to enjoy the present.
Just for the record - they forgot to add PharmD at the end =P; (just the reality of how this world has affected me as if I were defined by my titles)...
I'm really relieved that I love medicine, otherwise, I think I'd be really dumb to borrow $250K just to have an extra 2 initials at the end of my name.
P.S. For those of you who have never seen the movie "Goal! The Dream Begins", you're missing out!!! Such an inspiracion (in spi ra syon')! | | |
| No, i'm not talking about Match.com nor am i talking about anything anywhere related to the matter...
The Residency Match was this week and I found out today where I matched for the next 4 years of my life...I'm pretty ecstatic. So much of the whole process this time around in my life was answering the question, "What do I want?" The answer to this question didn't lie only in the caliber of the program, though that was definitely not to be compromised, but was found in "discovering and living out my true self." The stand alone Internal Medicine was not me, the stand alone Family Medicine was not me, Med-Peds was close enough, but IM/FM was just the right recipe with all its ingredients. It was scary to answer my own question of "What do I want?" in the fear of being disappointed; such risk and grieving to leave behind my life here in NYC for the sake of "living divided no more." GOD help me!
I'm going to be a combined Family Medicine/Internal Medicine Resident at St. Vincent Hospital Center in Indianapolis, IN
(http://www.stvincent.org/education/meded/default.htm)
GO COLTS???!!! =P | | |
| Ok peeps...for all you Grey's Anatomy people, take this quiz...and figure out which character you are at Grey's. unfortunately, they only relate you to the female characters in the show.
http://abc.go.com/primetime/greysanatomy/quiz/greysdiagnosis/index
i took it anyway...despite that just to see what the description is. I guess IZZIE is more of my twin...on an emotional basis, i guess i always was able to empathize with her...but on the physical basis, come on now...just call me McHottie since McDreamy and I are practically twins =P (except i'm younger)!...don't comment on that....who asked you anyway for your opinion???!!! just take the quiz and post your character!
BO CUEVAS:
You're impulsive and often follow your heart, not your head. Caring too much can get you in trouble. But you're always there for your friends, and good thing they're always there for you too. Just doing your job isn't for you; you'll always find a way to go above and beyond because there are so many people who need your help. Just remember to save yourself before you save the world.
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Unique??? I say so!!!
So i guess if someone says that they know Bo Cuevas, they wouldn't have to wonder if they're talking about different people. =P | | |
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